Hi Paigie,
I’m sure you are great because you are in heaven. Mommy, on the other hand, is having a pretty shitty day. It was either the dentist or Haley’s kindergarten graduation that ruined my day. Probably the graduation. I kept thinking that you did not get to graduate from kindergarten but how cute it would have been if you did. Everyone would be cheering, and I’d get to scoop you up in a big hug. Instead, Haley just ran over to me to open her rice crispy treat and confirm that lunch with Paw Paw was still a go. She’s not really the sentimental favorite.
The other night at somewhere completely unexpected, someone approached me and said “Are you Paige’s Mom?”. I could barely contain my excitement because this is my absolute all-time favorite question. Because I know the follow up is going to be wonderful. Unlike if someone came up and said “Are you Haley’s mom?” That question just strikes fear into my heart as to what is coming next. My questioner was just someone who knew a friend and came to Paige’s Princess Run. That’s really a great feeling for me to be recognized as your mom. Yesterday, someone also mistakenly called me Paige which I also enjoy. If I could actually change my legal name to “Paige” or “Paige’s Mom” without getting sent back to therapy, I’d be all about it.
We are getting ready for summer which should be fun for about three weeks until Grace and Haley start to turn on each other (and me). I found your turtle float the other day when I was at least cleaning out the pool house. Couple that with today’s car breakdown after graduation, and I would probably not have gotten my therapy graduation certificate. I guess some days just really suck, and there’s no butterfly to fly into my sight. I’m wondering how long I will have to find one good deed after another to jump into in an attempt to fill the goodness void of you. I’m guessing it’s going to be a while.
Love,
Mommy
