Soulmates

Hi Paige,

How is heaven?  It’s Father’s Day here, are you hanging out with any dad’s up there?  Or maybe you can just pull your own Daddy’s spirit up whenever you want to hang out.  I tend to sign on to that belief or else I would have to accept that you were totally away from us.  And, it’s hard to imagine you totally away because I think you’d miss us but technically I believe in heaven so you really can’t have those sad emotions in a perfect existence.  Today was pretty much an average shitty day for me, I don’t know if your dad feels like it was shittier than normal.  When your happiness scale is cut in half, there is really not that much fluctuation in mood.  So, on the bright side, the difference between a good and a bad day is only like a standard deviation of three.  I’ve been thinking a lot today about people who have to celebrate Father’s Day when their fathers are already in heaven.  My dad is still here, so I got the pleasure of hanging out with him today.  It was a real joy when his parting words were to the effect of “next time we do this, you’ll be forty”.  What the hell.  I think many people have their dad as a sort of soul mate though.  I think your Daddy for sure thought that you were his soul mate.  And, as much as I love to pretend that I have it going on as your mom, I think Daddy might have me on that one.  There’s even a page in your scrapbook called “Daddy’s girl” although someone was nice enough to say “Oh, I guess you were just always taking the pictures” to me.  Not really.  Really, you and Daddy did have a perfect connection.  I’m slightly (really) jealous too.  Not that I would have wanted to be Daddy’s soul mate, but definitely yours

In other news, Haley bit (yes, you read that correctly) Morgan.  I don’t even know what to say, but I could definitely use some divine intervention.  I’m also in a phase where I think adopting another kid sounds like a great idea.  Your soul mate does not agree.  So, if you can’t make Haley stop biting, could you at least work that out for me.  It’s probably just another crisis since your sisters will be in school all day in a couple of months, and I will have nothing to do.  I’m also considering a foundation which sounds great on paper but pulling it off with my personality might be a challenge.  While I am technically generous and giving, my people skills are really not at an all time high.

I hope you had some peace with your perfect heaven Daddy today, and maybe you gave your soul mate a special moment down here.

Love,

Mommy